Day at a Time

I am looking towards the next year and grading. It feels like a daunting task and sometimes I think "I don't know if I can do it. I'm not as young as most students and I can't do some things because of my bad knees. And if I can't grade for black belt, I might as well quit because I don't want to be a second degree brown for the rest of my life"  These are some of the thoughts going through my head lately. Then, on the other hand, I think of all the other people that have made it through black belt while dealing with way bigger obstacles and I think " I'm just copping out, I can do this".  I have come to the conclusion of taking one day at a time.  As long as I do that, I relieve the stress that I put on myself thinking about the year ahead of me. I haven't been committing myself to Kung Fu lately because of these negative thoughts.  I am trying to work through them. I really don't want to regret giving up on a dream. It's just that some days it's just easier to not do my pushups, not do my situps, not go to class.  Still struggling.